hajun,

I knew you'd be so beautiful today and if I didn't write these down, I'd lose my words. I still might stumble and lose my place so I hope you can forgive me if I do.

I always have been and always will be a planner, for those who don't know. Everything has always been a certain way and I had back up plans for my back up plans. I always knew what was coming and when and I was prepared. It was safer, better that way, or so I thought. When you showed up in my life, I was not prepared for anything that happened after that. You weren't in my plans, I wasn't ready, but for once, I was happy my plans fell through. I was happy just knowing you existed in the world.

When people would say "oh, you just know when you meet the one", I would roll my eyes and scoff. The notion of soulmates was lost on me. It took meeting you to realize that it's true, that they do exist, because I found mine. I met someone who immediately made me feel safe. I met a man that saw my worth right away and wouldn't stop showing me until I believed it. I met you and in that instant, I knew you'd be a positive force in my life for the rest of it. I didn't know then that it would be as my husband, but it didn't take too long to know that you couldn't be anything else.

You've never given up on me and you wouldn't let me give up on myself. From day one, you've inspired me to be a better man, to be the best man I could be, with your spirit and your smile and your heart. From the day we knew this was it, that this day was in our future, I've never once felt alone, I've never once felt unworthy, and I've never once needed for anything. We've come so far and grown so much and it's amazing to me how we adventure through life together as if we've never done life any other way. I know we can get through anything together and I'm no longer afraid to not always have a plan.

I want to promise you that throughout this life, I will always be present for you, I will always listen, I will always share. I won't waver in my love for you or my trust in you and I'll always believe in you, in myself, and in us. I'll always want you and need you and love you for exactly who you are. I'll support you and care for you and look out for you no matter what comes our way. I will always give you my very best every single day for the rest of our lives. I will stand by your side through all life's obstacles. I will celebrate your victories and comfort you in your sadness. I'll always be right here. And when we venture into the next life, I promise you that I will find you again and will love you just as deeply as I do now.

I love you, Hajun, and I will wear the title of your husband so proudly.