happy 8-month anniversary, my beautiful firefly.
hajun,
I remember being so mad at myself for having such a crush on you when I knew I shouldn't have. I remember how many nights I wished I had had the courage to tell you what I was feeling but never could. I remember thinking how much talking to you made me smile, made me unafraid to show who I was, and wanting that always. I remember thinking I could love you, I could make you happy, but then doubting someone as amazing as you would be content with someone as unimpressive as me. I hadn't even given myself a real chance and then suddenly, after things got destroyed and hearts had been bruised, the thing I had wanted all along rose from the ashes of my mistakes and it definitely was unexpected. I doubted myself so hard in the beginning but now I have never been more sure that you were meant to be mine. I'll love you every moment for the rest of our lives, that is my promise to you, future husband.
I remember being so mad at myself for having such a crush on you when I knew I shouldn't have. I remember how many nights I wished I had had the courage to tell you what I was feeling but never could. I remember thinking how much talking to you made me smile, made me unafraid to show who I was, and wanting that always. I remember thinking I could love you, I could make you happy, but then doubting someone as amazing as you would be content with someone as unimpressive as me. I hadn't even given myself a real chance and then suddenly, after things got destroyed and hearts had been bruised, the thing I had wanted all along rose from the ashes of my mistakes and it definitely was unexpected. I doubted myself so hard in the beginning but now I have never been more sure that you were meant to be mine. I'll love you every moment for the rest of our lives, that is my promise to you, future husband.